||[Feb. 1st, 2009|09:34 pm]
Eating Disordered and over 170
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STG: 169 I guess
ED that you have: EDNOS/COE Sometimes I purge, sometimes I restrict. Never been officially diagnosed with anything. I have issues with food. Serious issues.
I have had these different issues with food since I was 17, gaining and losing these same 30 lbs or so since then. I was able to get to 145 summer of '06 but in the summer of '08 I started these new anti-depressents and I ended up gaining all of that weight back in a few months by binge eating. I have since been struggling to lose weight, control my eating and generally keep my sanity. I start off by undereating/restricting at the beginning of the week, then my calorie count goes up during the week. By Thursday I'm purging after I eat, and everything is out the window on the weekends (aka binge and COE for two days.) Repeat. It's tough. Hopefully there are still active and social people in this comm who understand what I'm going through and maybe talk to me.
Monday is a new start for me, my birthday is on the 3rd. Eep, that means cake!